The Living Proof (ePub)

It felt like it all happened in just a split second. But this was not just seconds or even hours, this was years of emotions that I had unknowingly suppressed flooding my whole being in a single moment.

As I felt myself gasp for the breath my body had somehow forgotten to take in, I leant over the kitchen countertop in an attempt to hold myself up as I felt numbness shoot through my body from head to toe.

I had just texted a friend who also worked in ministry to say: "You have to help me find someone like me who has survived through this!" She knew the context: that I needed to see the evidence in a real life person to know that the God of the impossible could really get me through the impossible that wasn't just staring me in the face but had slammed me so far down I had lost all hope for my future in alignment with Jesus.

I found myself in a full-blown life crisis and felt as if I didn't have the strength to even breathe through the next ten minutes. I googled for blogs although I had never read one. I searched online for books to buy although I wasn't a book reader. I thought that surely I could find at least one personal biography of a female pastor somewhere in the world who had been through a divorce and/or types of oppression and come out the other side to now tell me I can make it through too...

I searched for any form of resource that would help me just get through the next five minutes. But my desperate search returned void.The twelve months following that moment back in 2015 led me on a journey of prophetic spiritual warfare for my emotional health, my two young children and the crisis I was stuck in.

The journey led me into levels and deeper layers of relationship with the Spirit of the living God that I never knew were possible. It showed me how to use the weapons I had already been armed with but didn't know how to use or reload... Even though I was looking for evidence for someone who survived this… let me tell you that I became evidence of not just surviving, but thriving.

I went beyond thriving in life. Some 'moments' were in fact months and years that had me surrounded by chaos emotionally, mentally and physically. Yet in the middle of the most severe storm I've encountered to this very day, I've continued to defy the odds against me, and challenged every stereotype the world has attempted to attach to me. How did I do this? Because I have Jesus with me, and He has never left me to this day.

All that I am is because of what Jesus Christ has done for me and He has already dealt with your crisis too. As you read, my intercession over you is that you be released from spiritual numbness and become unstuck from the blockage you haven't been able to move.

You will receive God's processing capacity to be able see the living proof that Jesus is alive in your life yesterday, today, tomorrow and into eternity.