The Espresso Shot (ePub)

emotional issues. No matter how hard one tries you cannot run away from yourself. In other words, no matter how hard you try to be the personality born from these issues, the more one will run into them. It is one's duty to realize the symbolic nature of our careers, relationships, homes, hobbies, habits, and trends. When these issues present themselves we often interpret things in a manner that reinforces these primal issues. We tell ourselves unconsciously that we didn't do well enough, weren't smart enough, or didn't love enough. This state of dissatisfaction is synonymous with the state of constantly needing more. We must learn to interpret these situations, which are a reflection of an emotional issue, in a manner that is open to learning, and letting go. These issues act as magnets to attract situations to be able to see them consciously. In other words, attracting them into your lives is a way of waking up to the deep unconscious emotional issues we all carry. When we re-approach the issues in self-forgiveness, and compassion, we can heal and move on. This is a journey we all must take.


Within the last year I chose to finally leave my family. Being connected with my family linked me with my own state of needing "more." I climbed the administrative ladder, and I realized I yet again attracted an abusive and coercive environment. But I tell you now that there is always a way through. Climbing this ladder gave me resources to a wonderful healer through my work benefits. It was here I was shaken out of denial. We wake up when we are ready to wake up. Up to this point I had written hundreds of poems, and thousands of journal pages, each entry helping me to get to the next step. After months of therapy I met the love of my life. A central theme to my poems, and my ambitions, was to meet the one I truly love. I knew deep down that I would find this person when I found myself. With the departure from my family I was open to finally living my own life, and healing in a new way.