No Need To Love (ePub)

The inner life of a man trapped inside himself.

Wendell Calinar, 78, suffers a stroke. The physical result is slight paralysis, but the mental implications-stemming from memory loss-are more profound. A retired history professor, Wendell's culminating interest is in personal history as recorded by individual memory. A nurse speaks of burn patients suffering terribly during treatment who remember none of the pain after healing. She wonders how real that suffering was considering that its physical causes were rescinded and the memory does not continue. What about amnesia victims? Wendell responds. Do they have no past life, only a present? He fears that if a person has no memory at his death, his entire life will be refuted by its ignorant end.

Wendell is stricken by a second stroke, which sends him into a permanent vegetative state (PVS). His visiting family members wonder of his true state of living. They long for insight into this mystery, which Wendell might possess, but cannot release. Wendell has no real-time experience, though inside himself, his life continues, full of events and emotions and family conflict. But all of his perceptions and sensations come to him in the form of recollection-his life becomes only memory.

NO NEED TO LOVE is the story of Wendell's ending life, describing the caregivers who treat him with compassion and ignorance, following his family members as they learn of living by observing Wendell's death. Conventionally, the narrative point of view is that of the Calinar family. Uniquely, the reader also shares Wendell's point of view, learning the inner living of a person who cannot communicate, but who continues to feel and think until his end.

Note: This novel is not intended to be a medical breakthrough, but humane, artistic insight.