Lukewarm (ePub)

'I am a good person. I go to church, I work hard, I pay my tithes... I don't do this, I don't do that, and I would never, ever do some of things the world is doing. Then why are these things happening to me? What am I doing wrong? This was the beginning of my journey to enlightenment. I found out that I had a deep respect for God, but not a relationship.'

I wrote this book when I was diagnosed with kidney failure and going through dialysis. Dialysis turned my whole world around. I really couldn't work much, I lost my good credit, and everything I had done to make my life better, everything I worked for, was gone. My faith was the last thing I was trying to hold on too, but my faith was fading fast. I just didn't think that I had to go through an illness that would stop me from taking care of myself, especially since I had no one else to take care of me. I was mad at myself, at the world, and God. If I knew that I was going to end up alone, sick, broken, and broke, I should have allowed myself to have more of a good time in life instead of being so disciplined and "good."

I was born in the mid-'50s in Westgrove, PA. At about three years old, in 1958, we moved to Delaware and I have lived there ever since. I attended the schools in Newark, DE, graduated from Newark High in 1973. I served in the Army from 1975 to 1978, came home, and worked in manufacturing, banking, health care, many other services. I was saved in my twenties. After that, I was in and out of many churches until I found a church where I was satisfied. Attended community college for several years, I have several degrees from Delaware Tech. I was diagnosed with kidney failure in May of 2013. That was a turning point in my life and why I had to write this book.